Signs

Humans have looked for meaning and signs to guide them on their paths for ions.  I suspect this is more true in the abstract sense than in the literal.  Long before men had created any place to go they were wandering the planet, trying to derive meaning from the world around them.

My mother was a devout Christian.  It made a huge formative impression on me and even though I have lost my faith in orthodox Christian belief twice there has always been an unrelenting need for me to find meaning.  I have looked, studied, analyzed, searched, dug, and reached for meaning where ever I might find it.  I have studied multiple religions.  I still search for meaning.

And at this point you can laugh if you want too.  You can think what you will but somewhere, somehow I began to fixate on the number 3, triangles and pyramids.  They have become path markers in the same way road signs have.  I have numerous examples to more than adequately justify my trust in this.  I do not know of 3 being a reliable marker to anyone.  I am okay with that.

At key points in my life something 3 sided, something common, suddenly jumps out at me.  Most commonly it is stones.  As a child with no toys, rocks and dirt were always my 'go-to' entertainment.

Yesterday I found a three sided stone next to a tree.  It was a good shade tree under a sun that was quickly becoming blisteringly bright and hot.  I was traveling on my bicycle, I had just set out from where I was, and my rear tire went flat.  This shade tree was a bit of an oasis.  The stone jumped out at me.

Like all abstract signs applied to a practical world there is much to be gained or lost in the interpretation and application.  I am gifted with friends whose light of wisdom shines brightest in their understanding of the abstract.  This is good for me, I am good and recognizing signs but not always the best at interpreting the signs.

Yesterday all my plans and hopes for coming out of the valley that I am trying to climb out of came unraveled.

With help I understand that the sign is not confirming that I made a right or wrong decision, it is a reminder to keep moving.  To not quit.  Do not give up.