Someone else observed 'Men tend to remember themselves greater than they were'. Perhaps not as catchy or as astute. Certainly not as freely embraced regardless of truth.
I am the observer. I keep that in mind as a challenge to not embellish these stories of my life. Integrity is important. I know that some of these memories that are shared experiences are remembered differently than how I tell it. I don't believe that takes away from the veracity of what I write. It matters because these stories are part of my identity.
Some of my stories have grave implications. Lives will be profoundly affected if or when they are shared. I have considered waiting till these people have passed on before sharing these stories but that seems sort of like a cheap and cowardly shot in the back.
I have thought about simply not sharing these stories. Maybe. I don't know yet, but there seems to be some cowardice in that too. It's not an easy decision. What good will come from bringing these things to the surface? Perhaps none. I don't know. But telling these hard stories are the point of this blog and I want to tell the whole story.
I feel certain that if the stories in question are told it will destroy more than one precious and sacred relationship. For me there will be greater depth and meaning to "You can never go home". Two men who see themselves greater than they are will be disgraced. These stories seem to be plugging up the works. I find it difficult to continue writing until I get past these stories.
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